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Tuesday, May 31, 2005

A ROOM WITH A VIEW

a house is made from bricks and stones,
a home is made from love alone...

the phrase still strikes me as corny no doubt yet i sit here in the last few hours
in a location i've grown accustomed to and even made fun of by people for spending too much time in... my room..
in a matter of hours now, my residence will have shifted over to the other side across the road and i shall no longer be a part of 3rd avenue.
unlike others who easily give in to orders by a higher power .. i can at least take comfort in the fact that i fought endlessly albeit a losing cause .. against the decision to sell this house .. i grew up here.. everything that i am is felt throughout this place..

i am not pleased at how bedok residents in the 3rd avenue are being shifted to other locations .. the government thinks that we are a malleable sort and will easily uproot from one location to another without any resistence.... then again considering the people who tremble at the mere thought of an inquest ... i can't say that the people here are a cause in itself worth fighting for afterall..
but it's too late now and nothing lasts forever .. i supposed i should have learnt that about this home i resided in for 24 years even after it was promised to me by my folks .. we all have to move on ..

the new place is a 4 room flat and it's much better suited for my parents as well i must say.. the neighbours aren't mean .. i happen to play soccer with their son ...
yet somehow it doesn't feel right for me.. or to be precise .. logical

everything that i am pulsates within my room and the view it gave me of the outside world shaped the person that i have become because of the time i afford to thoughts while i gazed upon the serenity in the heartland of bedok south ave 3.. i can't say the same for my new room... i did afterall tell my folks after the first proposal of selling the house .. that i'd leave singapore shortly cause i don't belong here no more if the one thing that's kept me sane goes away..come to think of it .. the linkin park song .. somewhere i belong ...doesn't sound like a stupid title for a song anymore...

how is it that on a great number of occassions..my room caters up to 10 people at one go without any single one complaining at all and just lapping up the fun nonstop be it a playstation night or a green day/night...all of this achieved with only one single floor matress on top of that ....make no mistake the magic the held together will be gone in a matter of hours ..

i'll have a proper bed to sleep in my new house complete with an air-conditioner in the room as well..i've constantly bitched to those who know me about how badly i want one and i should be glad im finally getting one..but there is no happy emotion at the thought of that .. im wondering if ill ever be able to view the glow in the dark stars with my dolphin lamp on in the dark while listening to a chillout winamp stream from shoutcast...i don't think it's possible probably because my parents would be sleeping next door instead of across the balcony ...and with the hollow bricks that hdb uses for flats .. the'd bang on my door forsure .. i guess that puts a permanent fullstop on the porn as well no doubt... ah .. i've struck rapport with the guys now ..

as i try to deal with this feeling of painful loss even while im still in my room..
while my soul keeps playing bedshaped nonstop...
i am glad that at least the memories gathered in this home and room can't ever be taken away from me...

here's an addition i thought of..

a house is made of bricks and stone ...
a home is made from love alone ...
and a room with a view will always brush away the blues....


R.I.P Kingdom Of Dreams 31 may 2005 ....yes .. that was the name of my room ..esa, lawrence, tsar, christabel, siglap rangers, trisha if you're ever gonna read this one day ..,

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Name: GOD
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Likes: PORN
Dislikes: CONDESENDING LOOKS
School: NANYANG CHINESE POLYTECHNIC

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Location: BEDOK CITY, 3rd Avenue, Singapore

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